Some Thoughs On Pablo

  I was reading an article link about how a lost Picasso was discovered underneath another painting of his. I saw this quote:
   "Picasso had hurriedly painted "The Blue Room" over another complete picture. "He could not afford to acquire new canvases every time he had an idea that he wanted to pursue. He worked sometimes on cardboard because canvas was so much more expensive."
 I had to smile when I read it, because if you substituted my name for Picasso's and any one of a number of my painting's titles for "The Blue Room" you could be talking about my situation for most of my career. I guess even as some things rapidly change in the art world, many others tend to remain the same. It did make me feel better about things. I had always pictured Pablo as never having to worry about art supplies, or anything along those lines. I assumed someone was taking care of his rent, food, clothes, etc. One thing is certain. Pablo Picasso was never called an asshole.

                    

Perhaps I Missed My Calling

   I'm still here. I'm still slogging ahead. I tell people (and myself) that things are better than they really are, and that they're getting better every day. I fancy that every one loves my artwork ( whether or not it's really true) and that no one could ever replace me. I hide my private life, never letting on when I encounter a setback. My public persona: always smiling, always positive, always expecting the best. I try to find ways to get others to finance my dreams. While thinking about all this today it occurred to me that I sound more like a politician than an artist. Then I thought, "what could I do to be more like an artist, other than creating art?". I suppose I could cut my ear off. Perhaps I could start wearing a black beret and smoking one of those skinny black cigarettes. I could squat in an abandoned warehouse in the crappy part of town. I could go on TV an act like a pretentious son-of-a-bitch (but now I'm drifting back to the politician-like behavour ). I really don't know what to do. Anyone have any ideas?